half a ton eye lids

My mom bought me a new laptop just until I get the one that I want...I'm glad but when I tried to connect to the wireless is said limited or no connectivity...blah! I'll call comcast tomorrow.
I'm really hoping to get an Apple...=) pray for me! lol.

Today was kinda rough because I was so sleepy and I was on edge...I just wanted to crawl into bed for the rest of the day...Idk why i'm still up because my eyes and head hurt!! geez! lol

I took care of alot of things that I needed to take care of today...I keep havin this certain someone on my mind and I'm not really sure if I want them there...been there done that...and I don't think I should be thinkin about doing it again...and I'm not even sure if they are still thinkin of me that way...life goes on.

I have been eating horribly!!! I think it's because I am stressed out...and it's cuttin close to graduation...and i'm gettin nervous or something. At least I went to the gym though, i don't feel the burn! lol maybe I'm gettin immune to it...lol. yea right!

Amber called herself going off about what i don't know... ONLY SHE KNOWS, something stupid I bet....blah whatever oh well. I really can care less...I know I have never done anything to her so I'm not stressing it.

ok i can't keep my eyes open any longer!

-toniWEDNESDAY

Just wanna FREEZE time

soo...my first blog.

I'm experiencing so many feelings and I just wish I could freeze time and deal with each one individually...I just want to freeze EVERYTHING and EVERYONE...except myself of course. I had such a good day yesterday and I'm stumped as to why I feel so crappy today! sheesh!


I went to church on sunday...and I really really enjoyed it.

The preacher spoke on a lot of personal subjects and said things

that I am going to put to use...Sunday was a good day

a very good day...but I woke up today...and I am just so out of wack.

I don't know why or how to shake it..

"our hearts are not a store room for grudges and bitterness"

something the preacher said and It has been popping into my head ever since...so I've been letting go of grudges, hurt, and even hatred and it feels alright i guess...i mean it's not like holding all of that in was ever benefiting me in the first place.

-toniWEDNESDAY